It is probably just me but it seems the world is getting less and less tolerant of people who are different from themselves. I went on a fix-up date with a lovely woman and her friends last weekend. She was not really what I was looking for and I committed a grave sin. I didn't have sex with her. For that I was looked down upon by everyone in attendance.

I am not really very fond of safe sex. In fact it does nothing for me. It serves as a reminder that there is no intimacy among partners and so I avoid it. Knowing that I can die from unsafe sex leads me to a life of celibacy. I am ok with it. I have had a number of long term partners with whom I have had rewarding sex, but beyond that I am not really into casual sex. I am really offended by those that feel the need to critique my life, and lifestyle. Unfortunately some of those people are my family members.

As Dave Chapelle said "if pussy were traded on the stock exchange the price would be falling into the toilet." When I was young I dreamed of a time when women who wanted sex were everywhere. Now it is far less appealing. Even a little scummy. And this is coming from a guy who has spent his share of time in very scummy places.

If I sound bitter, I suspect it is because I am. I have been fortunate to be involved with several very lovely, fine, intelligent women. With all of them I formed deep emotional connections. It seems disrespectful of them to engage in casual sex. In fact I don't really think casual sex describes it accurately. Casual sex is what one has with a stripper in a strip club. That is an honest fair and casual relationship. Casual sex with a stranger has in my experience been an exercise in control and manipulation.

Please understand if you live a lifestyle that includes frequent casual sex I don't fault you for it. You are free to do what works for you. For me, it doesn't; so please allow me to live my life the way that I wish to live it.

The way I will live my life is I will wait for someone very special to cross my path again and I will establish a special, unique and honest relationship with that person. Until that time I will occupy my time with what challenges the world presents.

The party did remind me of what good friends I do have here, and that I should be much more appreciative of them.